This girl is smiling. I am smiling because I am sitting at school checking blogs and email and this and that. Most days this luxury is unafforded between breaking up fights, dealing with pubescent body odor, and trying to teach students the wonders of science. But today is movie day. A great day for me. A gift for me on my thirtieth birthday. The students are enraptured in the movie and I am blissfully taking a mental break. I need it. It has been quite the year. It has been stretching and horrible and surprising and unavoidable. What I mean is that I have felt trapped all year by the fact that I have been completely uncomfortable from day one. And here I am, nearing the end of my tenure of training. That is what I have come to call this year. Training. Boot camp. Difficult but necessary. So, there you have it… the initial summation of my year from hell… I mean, oops, my year in training.
Other than that drawing to a close, we are also in crunch time mode for the house process. We are closing on our old house in eight days, which means I need to begin boxing up all our belongings. Davy is constantly working over at the new house at this point… trying to get everything ready. Floors, Plumbing, Toilets, Paint, Gutters, and the list goes on… We have hired out some help on some of those things… but it is still an enormous undertaking. I have been painting like my life depended on it, and thankfully my mom has been watching the kids alot. But the house is so great and I am so glad we are doing this. I honestly think Davy and I could do this professionally… but that is a whole different story.
Ben got his stitches out the other day and the hand seems to be healing fine. He will be able to flip the bird if he so chooses (it was his middle finger.) But he is still wearing a band aid and does not want to look at it. I learned a valuable lesson from this accident (well several) but the main one is, ask if your child can be slightly sedated when they are being stitched in a difficult place for a long time. They stitched Ben for about 20 minutes on his hand, and that was where the real trauma occurred. All in all, I learned to be pro-active for your child, demanding proper care, and also to talk to the dr. about all the options. (They did not offer any sedatives… but trust me… 20 minutes of holding your own kid down screaming in pain while they try to stitch a difficult spot is torture for everyone in the room.) Thank you Jonathan for your professional opinion. Hopefully, Ben will let us touch his finger again. Thanks to all of you who sent messages for Ben!
So today is my big 3-0. I am enjoying it enough. I now have visible wrinkles. I really do. I am enjoying the responsibility of becoming older. I am enjoying being a mother and a wife and a woman who can think for herself. I actually feel different today. I feel older, and maybe a touch wiser.
Love you all and will keep you posted on a belated party that Davy and I are planning (after all the moving chaos has settled.)