The holidays were so great. It is just good to slow down. We went camping with the kids. We had a small family dinner with my parents. I let my cell phone battery die and didn’t touch the computer. That is an accomplishment for me. I didn’t think about work. We went on a date. We slept.
And today we went back to the grind for a few weeks. It is a grind. I mean, life was meant to be savored. And there are times when I am too busy. I have said it out loud recently. I am overcommitted.
I’ll say it again, I am overcommitted.
It feels good and bad to admit that. Good because it is true. Bad because I feel like I have to do something about it.
I’m not sure why I do it to myself. I know some of it stems from the working mom mentality. Since I can’t be there during the day, volunteering with the kids, spending time with other moms, and simply having the ability to be more free with my time, I feel like I must be present with the only time that I have. But that’s tricky. It sounds like the right solution, because it is good for the kids and it doesn’t sound like a huge commitment when I first commit.
But when I get home from work at 5. Spend time with the family until the kids go to bed, and then sit down to take a breath, I often find that I have committed myself to something I must accomplish. Sending an email, planning an activity for afterschool kid commitments, writing letters, reading school stuff, making lunches, something just seems to pop up.
I’m not complaining. I am just understanding my weakness more and more. I am weak.
I bite off too much. I don’t think of myself with sober judgement sometimes.
I am still learning. I am still learning.
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