Archive for December, 2008



19
Dec
08

my little darlings

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I do love these students. I really do.

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12
Dec
08

always enough

I feel poured out often. Like a pitcher of water, or lemonade, or whatever substance resides within me. Between being a wife, a mother, a teacher, a friend, a daughter, and a human, the pouring is often, and plentiful. I settle on the surface of the earth and soak into the cool ground, often never retrieving that exact same piece of me. Gone, gone, I seep into the dirt.

How do you continue when you feel empty? Where do you go? Or rather, where does that piece of you, that you just poured go?

That is the mystery to me. That is the mystery kept from me. That is the beauty of the mystery that is kept from me that  I will never know. I will never know. Probably best that way. In the moment of emptiness it feels as if it has watered nothing but dropped to the ground without purpose, soaking nothing. But today, hope exists. It will remain, where it belongs, hopefully in the heart and soul of another. Hopefully, my pour, as I once imagined, will not end up in the lifeless dirt, but in the soul of another vessel, needing to be filled. This is my hope.

Today, I have realized… that I was poured into. Not in a big way, but in the small ways that really add up. A student’s look that said more than words to apologize. A cool breeze on a brisk walk. A student recognizing that he “learned best this way”. A child clapping her hands to a simple song. A friend, many miles away, just wanting to talk. A three year old voice, just practicing his words. A colleague offering to help. A big, beautiful full moon. A night with a loved one.

I am not full. And I have realized I never will be. But today I have been given enough to give away tomorrow.

And that is all the hope I need.

10
Dec
08

Honest to goodness

Truth. I had a crappy day today. Most of the feeling comes from work… where often I wonder what my purpose is… or if I am even making an impact. Truth. I just want to numb myself from the fact that I am unhappy right now. Truth. I don’t even want to talk to God about it. That would mean I would have to think about it. Truth. I am unsure of what to do. Truth. This is the most I can give right now. Truth.

08
Dec
08

Ben and Summer

The pictures say it all. They are happy and healthy and becoming partners in crime. 

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08
Dec
08

How much do I love these pictures?

Many moons ago, our dear friends got married. Obviously, from what you see below, Davy and I enjoyed ourselves immensely at the after-party. I had to put these down in the record books… they are some of my favorite photos of us…  all of us. Dany and Jen are our family. We love you guys. Thanks for the memories.

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04
Dec
08

a slice of us

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